There are no coincidences anymore, only the elaborate web of fate they've all become tangled in. To have his eyes opened to how intricately woven Nida's been this whole time makes Squall realize there are more forces at work than just those in his immediate circle. If he were to think back on his time lost to the whims of Time Compression, would he see Nida there in the background of it all? A slowly turning cog just like the rest of them?
He feels sick thinking about how widespread his own ignorance is when it comes to the far reaching fingers of fate and knows that the only way he can hope for a divergence from it is to shake himself of his malaise so he can start to look at the larger picture; moments in time that have helped contribute to their place in the world when Ultimecia descended upon it and everything that has come after that will facilitate her rise to power. Nida's family, his relationship to Seifer (whatever it might be), the cabin where their reunion will take place... Squall's mouth firms into a grim line as he forces himself to breathe through the rising panic that comes whenever he thinks of the lines fate has drawn and how he can't seem to stray from its path.
Briefly, Squall considers whether it's Nida who should try and intercept Seifer but there's a fire in him now that not even Shiva can suppress. No. No, it needs to be him. Even if the reasoning is purely selfish rather than a position of rank, Squall needs to do this for himself. And Hyne, maybe it's arrogant, but he truly believes he's the best shot Seifer has at getting to safety and reintegrating somehow with society.
"I'll make sure they're both standing at the end of it." He doesn't say Seifer's name. He hasn't said Seifer's name. Not once since Nida's reported to him. If pressed, Squall would say it's because it feels like a jinx. As if the moment he says it, Seifer will somehow disappear into thin air and elude him like he has since the war ended.
Squall's eyes lower to the pages in his hands and Hyne, so much makes sense about this and yet he can't quite put the puzzle pieces together in a way that doesn't incite a primal envy in him he thought he'd buried. "I wasn't aware you were from Timber..." More pieces fall into place. Like why Nida was the only new cadet not assigned to the Forest Owls. "Does he know the cabin's yours?" There's nothing good that will come from knowing except to gauge what kind of familiarity Seifer is likely to already have with the place. It might mean he's better fortified. Squall tells himself that's the only reason why he asks.
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He feels sick thinking about how widespread his own ignorance is when it comes to the far reaching fingers of fate and knows that the only way he can hope for a divergence from it is to shake himself of his malaise so he can start to look at the larger picture; moments in time that have helped contribute to their place in the world when Ultimecia descended upon it and everything that has come after that will facilitate her rise to power. Nida's family, his relationship to Seifer (whatever it might be), the cabin where their reunion will take place... Squall's mouth firms into a grim line as he forces himself to breathe through the rising panic that comes whenever he thinks of the lines fate has drawn and how he can't seem to stray from its path.
Briefly, Squall considers whether it's Nida who should try and intercept Seifer but there's a fire in him now that not even Shiva can suppress. No. No, it needs to be him. Even if the reasoning is purely selfish rather than a position of rank, Squall needs to do this for himself. And Hyne, maybe it's arrogant, but he truly believes he's the best shot Seifer has at getting to safety and reintegrating somehow with society.
"I'll make sure they're both standing at the end of it." He doesn't say Seifer's name. He hasn't said Seifer's name. Not once since Nida's reported to him. If pressed, Squall would say it's because it feels like a jinx. As if the moment he says it, Seifer will somehow disappear into thin air and elude him like he has since the war ended.
Squall's eyes lower to the pages in his hands and Hyne, so much makes sense about this and yet he can't quite put the puzzle pieces together in a way that doesn't incite a primal envy in him he thought he'd buried. "I wasn't aware you were from Timber..." More pieces fall into place. Like why Nida was the only new cadet not assigned to the Forest Owls. "Does he know the cabin's yours?" There's nothing good that will come from knowing except to gauge what kind of familiarity Seifer is likely to already have with the place. It might mean he's better fortified. Squall tells himself that's the only reason why he asks.